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Wolfman thankyou I do believe several times in my growing up my mom has no recollection at all which is weird because she is so quick so fast and so smart. At one time I thought she had althiemers disease. Because she could forget so quickly and always say I am lying. When she was right there and most of the time when the experiences happened with her there was no witness just me and her. She would always afterward get on the phone to everyone she knows and tell them I cussed her out or something totally not true really mean and make it out like I was the evil one. Anyone that knows me I am so sweet that I do not cuss but rarely and when I do peeps usually laugh cuz my voice sounds so sweet they think its a funny joke or can’t even believe their ears that I said that cuz of my voice. I never even realized that until an adult talking to my friend after she witness me in a mad rage at someone that was being mean to me. She laughed her ass off and try to teach me how to say the word bitch properly. I always thought I must sound horrible the way my mom would make me out to others when I did not even raise my voice at her.

I don’t even go near her anymore. I talk like maybe once or twice a year on the phone that is enough for me. I only do that to ease her to not try and destroy my life. I have to always be careful what I say to her because she will twist my words and use against me everytime even when It was something nice I did or said.

Like for instance I know my mom likes to cook thanksgiving and have everyone there all the grandkids and all. Well I lived 400 miles away and I worked the day before and the day after. I drove 6 hours after work so basically when I go there I am up like 24 hours straight just to be there. Then I had to leave that afternoon to drive back to be back by midnight to be at work the next morning by 430am. My mom told the whole world afterwards that I only came to eat and leave just for the food.

you are right again the love stops them in there tract. You can even say no you cant do that just sweetly to them and they can’t if you have the right mind at the time. I want to know though how does the demon get so powerful that they take full control? this is a hard question to even put in words. I know my mom I used to could just talk to her in private and her mouth would like glue shut where she could not speak at all and had to listen to me. She is like a person that will never let the other person speak in a conversation. Also she used to have post it notes everywhere to remind her of everything without them she would be so confused and flustered. I notice now that she don’t have to have them anymore. Its like getting stronger in her the older she gets. How do you get the demon out of her? I know there is demon in her. Once when I was 17 years old she was going to slap me I caught her hand with mine and said nicely you can’t do that. She put her hand down and her eyes glowed bright red.

yes wolfman. I am protected by angles my whole life. I was adopted into this family as an infant. My mom has always had this demon in her. I notice she was not right when I was only 6 years old. It is weird too because she is so religious she always goes to church. She has a degree in bible theology. She is so business smart mathmatically she does not even have to have a calculator to add up large and lots of figures to the penny. She takes frequent short cat naps. She would always say mother has to go rest her weary bones and she would go lay flat on her back for like 10 minutes and then right back up. She is very artistic also and can sew anything without a pattern like even wedding dresses. She is also very musical in she can even play an accordian, piano, organ, trumpet, frenchorn and trombone. But this is weird she never listens to music. Never turns on the radio in her car. I do not live close to her. I am 800 miles away now. Thank goodness. But I never really feel like I am that far away distance and time really don’t matter to her when it comes to her trying to destroy my life. When dad retired the second time they bought a second home 800 miles away from the first home. She would just get in her car and drive back to the other one if she forgot something that she wanted from the first home kinda like she was just going up the street. When she had my son she would set his alam to wake up at exactly 7:52 and tell me that is the exact time he needs to wake up to get ready to catch the bus. She is the strangest person I have ever met. When my dad retired from 24 years in the marines the last four in vietnam. My father sexually abused me when I was seven years old for a whole year of my life. My mom would sometimes be in the house at the time like in the sewing room. Well my dad did it more in more till he was doing me twice a day then it got to the point I was in the bathroom about to take a bath and my dad comes in gets naked and sets me on his lap while i am naked too. My mom walks in the bathroom and sees this. My mom then sleeps on a pallet in my sisters and my room for one night then goes back to a shared bed with my father the next day. My father told me when I was older that he did that too me because I was adopted and my sister wasn’t adopted and also that my mom had never had sex with him after my sister was concieved. Me and my sister are only six months apart in age. My mom had a boy first she named him after her even. My mom is named after her father. She has his first name as her middle name Maurice. My eldest brother has the same middle name. Six years later my mom wanted another baby. She could not concieve my father went to doctor and they told them his sperm count was low. My mom then adopted my next brother. Six years later my mom wanted another baby specifically girl. They put in for another adoption and specified girl. My mom then became pregnant. Back then you could not get an ultrasound to determine the sex so while she was 3 months pregnant the social service called and said they have your girl which is me.She said yes because she wanted to be certain to have a girl. My sister was then born six months later on valentines day. My mom is an identical twin so she did not want us in the same grade like she was with her own sister. I think my mom had my real birthday altered in the court do to my birthday fell one week before the cut off to be able to start kindergarden and be a grade ahead of my sister. When you read my adoption paper the dates do not make sense at all. Anyways after my sister was concieved my mom never had sex again with my dad. She is weird and evil to the highest degree. There was one time when I was 15 down the street lived a teenage boy my grade that was a known satanist. It was just a known fact that all the kids knew he never harmed anyone was really smart did not get in trouble had a pet ferret and liked to play dungeons and dragons. But he did do devil worship there was a place down the end of the next street where there was like a pentagram drawn and someone told me that was where they did some kind of santantic rituals. It was also told to me that he burned a bible in his front yard one day with a magnifying glass. Well anyway this is strange this boy one day out of the blue just shows up at our house and comes in and just starts walking around and getting my moms books and looking at them. My mom has thousands of bible books and religious books. It was like he was trying to understand and be close to my mom. It was so weird. I could go on and on. That women is evil. I would just like to know how to stop her get the demon away from her and the demon out of my life. Cuz it is like you say they never stop. Its weird too cuz like I said she is an adult sunday school teacher the church secretary on and on to the world they think she is good as gold.

oh my dad has alway been like her slave my whole lifetime he has worked and worked to give her anything she wants or desires she controls him totally on everything. If she said she wanted the moon I would not doubt my dad to try to get it for her. And she is never happy with any of it. Complains about it all. She would always drive me and my sis to every store in Little Rock shopping it was a two hour drive I always sat in the back seat and just sang and sang songs lol without a radio. while my mom and sister talked about how much they disliked dad the whole time. While on the way of spending his money. Cuz she has never worked much only part time job everynow in then when the spur hit her she wanted to work and mainly just so she could get a little social security of her own cuz she is all about them benjamins. When dad retired he sent her money to go buy house anywhere she desired. She came to PineBluff, Arkansas the voted number one worst city in united states to live for every year we lived there to be next to her mom. Whom she disliked also. Everytime we would go visit grandma mom would tell us girls we are just going in there for a minute be ready to go as soon as we get in there. Well my mom took grandma to store and doctor, my grandma never drove before in her life. and the 10 minute visits for until my grandma died. When Grandma died my mom did not even cry one tear. She was angry she was not made the executor of her will. And mad because grandma did not leave her more money. Her mom’s family is from that town for generations. My great grandfather Stanely was the Sheriff of pineBluff and pulled teeth. They are very racist. Still say the N word to this day in the bad way. My mom attended Little Rock Central High school while the first immigration was taking place and the national gaurd was there. She was not on the civil side. She is evil evil. When I was in second grade my parents moved us to Sheridan an all white town in the dirty south. It was a known fact that the kkk was there. I attended an all white public school with all white teachers during the late 70 early 80’s. This was after redisctering all the schools in arkansas this town still was all white with a curfew on negroes law still in effect. They would lock em up in jail if there after dark. Also while I was there a family moved to the city limit line they had a tall chainlink fence around there home. The home was burned down. I was called the N word to me all the time cuz my skin so dark cuz I am half mexican. This town had a high rate of teen suicide the highest rate in the united states. Some kids went to the front of the classroom in the middle of class and shot thereselves in the head. Lots hung thereselves. The last time I drove down the highway I lived on back then that goes through what we called the bottoms I just drove straight through God told me to and don’t look back kinda like what God told Lot in the bible to leave and don’t look back. While driving I notice like flocks not just a few but flocks of big huge buzzards flying all around. This is where I lived during the time of the sexual abuse.

She came to visit me during my practicle nursing school days. My son and I were getting things together to go live at the homeless shelter because my electricity and water had been shut off at the same time because I was living on a gross income of 142 dollars a month. Tea benefits in the state of Arkansas.  My mom  says lets go eat. We went to CiCi’s pizza ate and she brought us back home not another word was spoken about us going to live at the homeless shelter.  While at the homeless shelter my mom drives by with dad and gives us a few things she found at a garage sale. How she found us I do not know. Was like a plastic tiger cup with a straw for my son.  Well I lived there a month because I started a job that would take 3 weeks to get my first paycheck and the first pay check was only like 50 dollars because I started on the last day of the payperiod of bi-weekly pay with a week hold back.  Me and my son left 2 days before the payday because my son witness a man trying to kill another man. We camped out in the living room with my neighbor Neicy let me plug into her side and I used a lamp to write a term paper for college so I would not flunk the course in Geriontology. [Symbol]

After graduation of LPN I started a job in dialysis before taking state boards. I could not afford the money for the test. I was making 8 dollars an hour. My mom helps me move to an apartment I know she knew I could not afford because she takes care of her family’s bills all her life. Every month balances like over 20,000 dollars of bills. Plus she does the Church finances too she the one that has to sign all the checks along with the pastor. Well certainly I needed her help with my bills I tried calling her she would not answer the phone. My landlord took my front door off and then put an eviction letter on my door. I was moving to the back house of my friend Neicy’s grandfather. My parents came and mom came in my door screaming to the top of her lungs satan get thee behind me. I pushed her out the door and kept on packing. Then my mom dad and sister came and tried to kidnap me to go 90 miles away to her house while I had work the next day in dialysis. So anyway I ended up at home after I tried to escape by trying to open the door at the stoplight and parents then called paramedic to ER telling them I tried to jump out a moving van. The doctor said I could go home with someone there. My sister stayed and then called the cop on me again because I ask her nicely to use her cell phone next I slapped her cuz this was my home and she had no right to call the cop on me. I went to jail for slapping her. Next I was in mental hospital  on Monday. I spent the weekend in jail then hospital on Monday. On Tuesday the doctor had me sign paper to be in hospital on my own free will and showed me signed papers from Judge, lawyer and mom taking custoIdy of my son.

I got out of hospital went back to work did not loose any pay at all because I had vacation and sick leave.  I applied for college again got accepted graduated college and went to traveling nursing because I could not afford to live on the income I had due to I had payday loaned myself into too much. My payday was in the red on payday.  I packed all my things in my car with not even gas money to get to Corsicanna. I went to wal-mart parking lot and prayed. I called my friend that is so busy that it is hard to get to him sometimes. I just called and called and called and called his uncle and left message. I knew he would get back to me. Anyways I call my mom thinking she might loan me just a few dollars for gas to get me to my new job especially since she knew about it and I had even been at her house when I applied for the jobs and she had helped me to plan for  the job. When I called her she said no really mean. I begged and cried and said why mom? She did not give an answer.  I told her I guesse you want me to be a whore and get the money? Wtf. She hung up in my face. My friend called about 30 minutes later was the hottest August day of the year.  He sent me a moneygram for the gas to get to my new job. I love him so much.


Comments Written on Post Deleted(Enlightenment)by Winged Dove..


I do not have the story copied but I did copy my comments and no one elses comments to this story.  I went back to copy the whole story one day and the story had been deleted.

Lou what does it mean when I do not dream? I am forty years old and can count less than 10 dreams that I have ever had asleep. I have had more than that awake though. I do know when I was diagnosed hypomania for the hospitalization 2004 the med I went home on after 2 weeks of hospitalization was tri-leptal. It slows the sodium ions at the synaspe so my brain is not going so fast. I was on 250mg. The doc said it was managed logically to the mania. He had to tell me this cuz I also discovered there I have paradoxical effect to nighttime tylenol with Old English beer. I used to mix those two together and stay up at night without sleep and lots of energy during LPN school days. I have gone days weeks with only taking in food wise only drinking some milk and orange juice btw when I was the Nanny way back in 1988 fed to the newborn I kept even though every grownup back then told me those two mix clabber up and the baby will vomit so not true. Well after me doing so and my labs drawn perfect labs on everything. The only one time in my life when my labs weren’t perfect was when I was the hypomania from working new job in dialysis 6 10 hour days shorthanded, being evicted, door taken off, studying for state boards, moving, mom screaming at me to the top of her lungs satan get the behind me all at the same time. then to jail for slapping my sister, My potassium was a critical low 2.2. When I got to the hospital they gave me the big K+ pill twice daily along with salt substitute, oranges galore and I would even eat off the other peeps oranges that didnt want theirs, potatoes, bananas very high potassium diet my potassium after the two weeks was just barely norman at exactly 3.5.

That doctor at the time diagnosed it as hypokalemia of unkown origin.

and the new born I was the nanny for three years she is perfectly fine Got a masters degree in nursing at 22 years old.

This is another one too I am curious about when I was working at the National Center For Toxilogical Research named changed to FDA while I was there we would get memos all the time in our in box on studies. One that sparked my curiosity was on baby fomula which is created and made in Japan where very smart people are( just saying all I ever went to school with had the minds that would amaze me) This study was being done by the makers of the formula. The conclusion was that definitely stop the baby from drinking it in 12 months cuz the brain will speed up so fast it won’t ever come back down to function properly in todays world anyway. This is very paraphrased cuz It was very detailed memo with extremely big words most would not understand to read it. I only read it one time this was the year 2000. I just threw the memo in trash with all the other memos and Thanked God I was so poor that both my babies were on wic where they only give you the formula until the babies are one year old then it stops cold turkey. I also thought how mean the poor are the guinee pigs but at least its a study in progress behind closed doors so its monitored and not out of control but what about the rich peeps babies whom kept buying the expensive milk after the year? Those peeps had no clue and that milk was 4$ a can back in 1992.

I notice also my son’s mind so fast I was still having to slow it down in kidergarten to learn him his spelling words I made flash cards and just flipped though them as fast as i could he got it in one flip through. His kindergarten teacher would tell me he did not listen in class. When he come home from school I ask him what the teacher read during reading time for this is the exact time the teacher said to me my son was doing other things and not listening she even had to put him at the back of the class to not disturb others. Well when I would ask him this he would repeat to me word for word everybit of the story to me. So how on earth could he have been not listening? My daughter got the wic in 1992. My son got the wic in 1998. The study was completed and in my memo box in 2000.

With both my pregnancies before I found out because I do not have menstral cycles. Daughter found out on my 21st birhtday best friend gave me 2 dollars as a gift to go to Health clinic to get checked for disease due to day before birthday found my boyfriend at time cheating on me redhanded. I was 3 months pregnant. With son found out was 5 months pregnant. The diet I had was slimfast and v-8juice.

lol something about the word enlightenment gets me to thinking so sorry. This is one thing that I planned on in the future to do a research paper on when furthering my college. The writing grades come easy for me its the life with the destroyer to get there that is so rough.

I myself as a baby did not have formula for 1970 only milk. But mom did tell me she would feed me about 5 jars of baby food in one sitting when 3 months old would just eat nonstop she had to finally just stop feeding me. And growing up ate homecooked meals from iron skillet. with not just five courses every meal had the five courses alonge with every homegrown vegetable you can imagine my dad had a 3 acre garden. A cucumber patch the size of half a football field lol I am not exagerating. My dad is a third generation imagrant family from Germany. Farmers He litterally was born in a barn they farmed other peoples land for a living and when grandma was pregnant with my dad their house had burned down and they were living in a barn at the time he was born.

He is professional about the farming too would always tell me he had to think out where to put the watermelon every year cuz he knows what soil provides the nutrients he knows all about all that stuff. He learned it from full blooded German farmers trust me he knows. We even had the biggest prettiest sunflowers you ever did see growing in that garden and the best place to grow stawberries is a worm box cuz that is exactly what he did had a worm box for worms and then grew the strawberries in the box. Its the best strawberry shortcake you ever ate in your life:) Not much luck though with the fruit trees during those years but now roses my dad is like expert on those and they bloom nonstop until February and he clips them even though they still blooming just to get more all you have to do is just clip and stick in the dirt? Now why does not everybody on Earth have roses and why they so expensive?

He would plant by the almanc not the weather channel and also somethings grow best if you plant before a storm or while slightly raining. Also he did all his outside summer heat work in longsleeve shirt so weird to me gives new meaning to redneck. Brother always telling me he was a red neck lol so I thought that was the true meaning until a grownup lmao.

  • Two years ago I first discovered the true meaning of redneck due to reading  a blog I am subscribed too DaisyBrain. So I googled redneck and discovered the true meaning.  Then I finally got the point of the redneck jokes lol  even made up some of my own and posted as facebook statuses. Well then Ernest Wharburg  a very experinced physcologist inboxed me to say  this is not what he said just saving it here while I am at it I love my daughter.
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Doreen Van Assen thankyou baby I love you moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

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Sabrina Fay Vinson Nooooooooooooooooo

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Doreen Van Assen yes I luv you to the moon and back:)infinity

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Sabrina Fay Vinson well then i love you past tht bc i love u more!!

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A country boy can survive:-) Hank Williams Jr.

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if you ever been on a date looking for owls on a dark gravel road you just might be a redneck

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if your sittin around the dinner table on thanksgiving day and your nephew whoops out a pocket knife to cut off a coke bottle label you just might be a redneck.

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Well after these status’s Ernest inboxed me and said Coun[Picture]ry Boy Can Survive :0)

I was wondering who is this and how he even know me only one friend l in common? A friend that I just got random friens lots of em because I was into playing farmville and cafe world back then and sent out on one of those friend for all to have neighbors. And I amazingly got the best neighbors in the world litterally all over the world.  So I checked out his profile he has lots of credentials amazing. I hired him myself for therapy he is one of the best from personal experience. Taught me everyone has there own mom, dad, sister, brother etc… all right there inside your own self lol was very inexpensive and put up with my computer going haywire on free wi-fi on even cloudy days. [Symbol] The post I have on here is an original therapy got interupted from my wi-fi computer so I inboxed him on facebook my homework assignment he gave me to list the positive things about myself was trying to work on confidence was one of my major flaws at the job they been hounding me about it.  See that is what therapist do you pay them to help you with what you really need help with. And they smart enough to realize what most likely will help

. This is some just some more thoughts too I know my sister and both brothers are tested genuises by the government. My sister tested and approved to become linguist actually they told her she could have what ever job she wanted she chose that cuz her fantasy was to be a spy sleeping with the enemy finding out the secretes. She was top clearance approved they went all the way back to birth and in bootcamp and she discovered she was pregnant. So she got discharge and bus ticket home. She then went to college and to work as CAD before graduating and never graduated. My sister is a biological child. My oldest brother tested genius to become nuclear physicist in navy he is very smart knows every question on jeopardy. He got in navy and got drunk everyday and flunked out the program of nuclear physicist and became boiler operator. He about to retire over 20 years at PB arsenal boiler operator. He is also biological child of my parents. My brother 6 years older than me tested genius also to become a pilot in the marines lol I never even knew they had pilots?He couldn’t though because of hearing deficet. My brother was a preemie and ear surgeries during kindergarten and acutually missed kidergarten in Hwawii where born due to all the sugeries. Later parents moved to state where kidergarten was not even a requirement. So he basically skip kindergarten straight to 1st grade. He was always very small for his age weighed only 90lbs on graduation from highschool parents had to sign a waiver for him to even enlist. He did not know his abc’s at that time of highschool grad or the months of the year in order I was only 7 at the time and used to laugh at him for it cuz I knew mine.  He would draw airplanes all over his papers used to get whipped in just underwear on for it wasting the paper. Even though so small in stature while in bootcamp set records in situps and prob other things too. He used to work out everyday weights at home always doing too much too lol once the bar was on him choking his neck red begging me to get it off him me only 7? I did help him though. He was a good boxer too. Anyways he decided to become an airplane engine mechanic instead and he did while in marines he learned for first time in his life he dyslexic. After marines he used the grants given by government for college and has bacherlor degree in science. He did that while also all the while working and paying car notes insurance etc but he did move back home with parents.  He is the first person to have a college degree of our family besides my mom’s bible degree. This brother is not biological. He is adopted. Then next is me I saw he could do that I knew I could too cuz that was my only goal 11th grade hs was to be a college grad and not going in the military.  I was well on my way was in a highschool that had 5 weighted classes that counted for college. Instead of 4 points for a a five. I had done full load of 5 point classes my 10th grade year A/B in all classes. My senior year the summer before actually I already have my classring with the highschool name I was at my parents move us 30 miles south to a school my senior class only had 88 students in it. lol easy to remember cuz 1988 year I grad hs. All those classes I took went down a notch everyone of em. I went to the counselors that be me and there was another really smart guy from PB high same thing with him he would of been validvictorian if not for that. Cuz he had straight a’s in the five weighted clases lol. From every class he ever took. So my dreams got delayed for no way for me to afford college and parents even though kicked me out at age 17,, had never allowed me to get a paying job before even though I begged for one. My mom counted me for the taxes both the years when I was 17 and 18. In order to qualify for pell grant you can only be counted on your own after two years of doing the taxes without anyone else counting you on there taxes. So I was 21 applied for the pell and acceptance to a fouryear college it came in mail the same day on my 21 birthday that I found out I was pregnant. My life is crazy for realzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I have never been tested for genius but my whole family always says I am the smartest one of em all and would always tell me how could I be so dumb?


Thoughts on Oil, Ducks, Rice, Auquifers, Senators, Blood and Disclosure of Fair politicians


Arkansas:  Stuttgart  duck capital of the world

also Rice Capital of the world

 

Senator Knox Nelson from Arkansas last Ran for Senator 1989. I was his personal secretary that year.  I chose not to ever vote in  my life due to this experience.  At the time Governor Bill Clinton I would hear the Senator call him and tell him over the phone to do things his way and hang up the phone in his face.  I went to committee meetings at the capital.  He had ideas to get rid of welfare and get them jobs.  I agreed a little with what was said but not all the way. I thought was very harsh to take much-needed help away from millions within the little time period asking for.  I never knew this one until recently that There is a major blood scandal with him and his best friend that worked for the prison about tainted HIV blood going to other countries.  Art Lockhart was Senator Knox Nelson’s best friend.

This about the blood was the only thing I could research on this man recently due to I was curious as to his legislation put into place back then.  This was the business I witnessed that all this time has had me not want to ever vote in my life even though politics  sparks my curiosity very much.  I remember at the time the major thing about the Late Senator Knox Nelson no one liked was that he closed records to the public about laws he put in place over the oil industry.  Senator Knox Nelson was owner and founder of Knox Nelson Oil Company.  He was President of Company Arkansas Marketers and Applied Energy.  I know he grew up poor born in Altheimer, Arkansas as a farmer.  I remember he had many farmer friends from Stuttgart, Arkansas.  I went with the Senator to a country club meeting in Stuttgart.  I realized the rice there was going all over the world back then.  This Senator was the chairman of the board of the means and ways committee, the energy and commerce committee, transportation committee, and the energy and commerce committee.   All these committee chair positions put him in a position of too much power in my mind. Recently when I tried to research his history I could not even find information on wikapedia. Like this man was able to erase history. How are we going to know what to do right or wrong with out the history? History is for us to make good decisions about the future.

Watching today the Keystone pipeline legislation intrigues me even more. The expression especially from Senator Jingle. What does like a duck on a June bug mean?  He also mentioned aquifer.  There is an actual aquifer in Arkansas that supplies water to the Rice. This aquifer has been drying up since the year 2000 worried about the farming in south arkansas to the fact that before this drying up the Senator I am fairly sure was behind the laws of government paying poor farmers for their crops although the crops go bad.  I have overheard actual farmers tell me that some farms could make more money from letting them go bad then growing a good crop.

I pray that there is some way to open the records enough for at the least some could know what happened and what is going on with the rice, oil, aquifer, blood. This way public can decide which politicians are making the best decisions for our country, for our children………

All I know is that Senator Jay Bradford won the election against Knox Nelson that year and Nelson’s power subsided some. Governor Bill Clinton back then went on to become President.  I am wondering what great outcomes became of the closed records????????????????????


Favorite Past-time while on vacation in August. Not invited


This is the first time I allowed my daughter to spend the night with my Mother over night. My mom took Lisa’s 3 boys and my daughter on a vacation to Florida.  My daughter is 9 years old. I taught her how to take a bath so as to not anger my mom, by leaving no soap suds in the bath or no hair. And by all means do not drip any kind of water on the floor and put the towel on the towel rack and let it be as dry as possible.  My mother before this vacation had never invited my daughter to her house over night ever for any reason. I was so excited that my daughter could make friends with my Mom.  She went on vacation with her 3 cousins JD which is born 2-7-1992.   Jonathon Dale I babysat as a new born while my sister worked every night at Bad Bobs Night Club as a waitress.  This baby is so special to me due to my sister was going to give him away at birth. The morning of his birth I was living in this same house with my sister. I was pregnant huge toxemia like huge. My sister hid hers. She barely wore clothes bigger than the ones 8 months prior. I worked at The Ray Clinic of Chiropratic. My sister worked at a hospital in housekeeping.  I could sense clues that my sister was pregnant.  1. she was taking iron supplements but they were making her sick. 2. There was Triple the wic milk in the fridge.  I had wic, my sister had wic and she had a 2 year old on wic at 2 years old you are on whole milk on the wic. So every week we had five gallons of milk in the fridge a week. Very blessed indeed 🙂  Well the morning on JDs birth Lisa woke dressed and left the house in less than 30 minutes and this is never her style. It takes at the least 1 whole hour just for eye shadow.  So I got up and went to her bed and the bed was soaked so I called my mother and let her know that I think Lisa has just gone to the hospital to have a baby.  Then all I know is that 2 days later that beautiful baby was at the house. So precious his cry so soft could barely be heard.  My sister went to work at a nightclub and I kept him.  I was soon put on bed rest due to the high blood pressure and edema.  I continued to keep Jonathon. I would sit and hold JD and rock him on my belly right on top of Sabrina singing them both asleep at the same time.  Sabrina was born 3-25-1992.   Dustin Lisa’s oldest 3-23-1990.  In the picture is Lisa’s youngest also born 8-11-1994.  All these babies are my precious nephews.  JD is extremely precious due to I rocked him so much right after birth right on top of my Sabrina. So it is like they are twins. I continue keep him after Sabrina’s birth. With them together also. When one was awake the other sleeping.  I was amazed how did my mom and my grandmother do twins?  It would be 11 pm at night and finally for 3 hours both would be asleep at the same time.

Girl 11 fish, Boys 3 fish